I forgot I haven't shut this down yet, so I started to, but then I remembered- I shut my myspace down a little while ago. So I lost all my writing there. However, I backed it all up here. So the game plan is, as I'm getting ready to go to bed- the next time I remember this site exists, I shall save everything to my hard drive (in the little space left on it), and then this page will be forever a part of internet hell somewhere. And I shall move on to other things...

In the meantime enjoy a banana (or don't enjoy it- but have one regardless) (do it for the children) (or something)

So now that my sleeping schedule is entirely skewed. I wonder if I'll ever return to some kind of regularity again. I sleep fine one night (so far), other than that, for the last week and a half- it's a little while here, a little bit there. I'm quite unhappy with this as up until recently (and since January) I was sleeping well. On a schedule to the point where I didn't need an alarm to get up by a certain time, I was just up. But alas, that is gone now, and as much as I am trying to regain it, it only seems to backfire on me. Oh well- pointless update achieved. If I don't sleep soon, I may return and write something else (if I feel the urge). Two weeks, six days, twenty hours and fourteen minutes

so as life keeps throwing curve balls at me, I'm doing better with dealing with them and making the best out of it. I'm trying to take the negatives and see the positive that may come out of it, and there's always something positive (I'm learning). With each door closed, 2 more open. I have people that support me and back me, though they aren't always the ones i expected... either way, I know who my true friends are.
I never thought that I'd be as far as I am, or as busy, in such a relatively short amount of time. I know what I am supposed to do, found it, and I'm doing everything in my power to make it work (which slowly but surely - it is). I refuse to say die. I refuse to be anything but a success. Regardless of who decides to stick by me on the (anything but) easy road.
I've got a wonderful thing ahead of me besides all the business things as well. For that- I'm (trying to be) patiently waiting. Good things come in time, and the best is soon to come :)
Between the two, I have high hopes. I will finally be happy to an extent that, even a few months ago, I would have thought not possible.
Take the good with the bad, learn from your mistakes, never give up on your dreams, strive for the best, yadda yadda yadda.  Whatever ya wanna use- it works, it takes time sometimes, but it does eventually work. So for my (probably) first ever positive post (I'll do my best not to make it a habit), With no profanity (same goes here) I leave you with another waste of web space- lol.